About My Journey

Growing up in a born-again Christian family, I struggled to understand the Bible. 

Only two books truly spoke to me - Proverbs and Revelation. 

Proverbs felt clear and full of wisdom. 

Revelation, on the other hand, was mysterious and difficult - but I could not stay away from it. 

The rest of the Bible? It felt like reading in a language I hadn’t learned. Despite my efforts, I couldn’t connect with it. I leaned heavily on Sunday sermons to help make sense of what I couldn’t on my own.

Eventually, I gave up trying to understand it. Maybe I wasn’t meant to understand the Bible like others did.

A Turning Point

Then came December 2008.

I had a supernatural encounter with God—It happened on the train when I was going home. An experience I can only describe as a near-death moment. For about a minute or two, I felt utterly detached from my body. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced and defied all logical explanations.

Years earlier, I had read Life After Life by Dr Raymond A. Moody, who coined the term “Near-Death Experiences.” His patients described dying for a few moments, returning to life, and being completely transformed. Their view of the world was never the same again. I was fascinated by their stories back then—never imagining I’d have a similar experience.

I did not ask for it, but in that moment, I believe God revealed Himself to me - through His Son, Jesus Christ.

That night, I couldn’t sleep. The next day, something had shifted. I began to understand Jesus in a way I never had before. It was as if a veil had been lifted. Only later did I realise that my long-standing curiosity about Revelation had somehow prepared me for that moment.

A New Journey Begins

Drawn to this new version of myself, I began a journey of discovery guided by the Holy Spirit. It’s been an incredible adventure, and it continues to unfold today. Initially, it was rocky. I was impatient and often rushed ahead, diving into deep waters I wasn’t ready for. I made mistakes.

At one point, driven by enthusiasm and naivety, I shared my experience too openly, too soon, expecting others to understand. I was met with confusion, mockery, and rejection. That hurt deeply. The people I shared my story with were not ready to receive any of it, but it seemed I was forcing it down their throats. I have only myself to blame.

I stepped back, retreating into the quiet, where I finally found a sense of calm. In those quiet, broken moments, I heard God's voice. It was gentle, powerful, and inviting. He called me to humble myself and seek Him in prayer. 

I obeyed, and that’s when a new journey within the journey began. Over time, I came to understand that what God truly desires is a relationship-a connection as intimate as the one He had with Adam and Eve before the fall. That longing is not just for me, but for every single person.

Through the valleys

I faced both deep inner battles and external challenges - each as complex and overwhelming as the other. Fear, anxiety, pain, and moments of hopelessness gripped me. 

In September 2023, I even came face-to-face with death in away that was different from  December 2008. It was an unpleasant moment. My blood sugar, blood pressure, and cholesterol all spiralled out of control. It was a physical crisis that mirrored the spiritual battle I was already fighting. Yet even in the darkest valley, God was with me - teaching, strengthening and guiding me. These moments humbled, shaped and refined me.

I could not escape. As the Apostle Paul writes: We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair... not abandoned, struck down, but not destroyed. (2 Corinthians 4: 8-9) 

Through these struggles, my relationship with God deepened. The Holy Spirit taught me to live out God’s word in tangible, practical ways. That’s when Scripture stopped being just words on a page and became deeply personal.

Each challenge became a hard but necessary teacher. Looking back, I see now that the Holy Spirit led me through what felt like the “valley of the shadow of death.” Those were do-or-die moments. I was being shaped and moulded into the person God wanted me to be.

I understood that I could not give up, no matter what, because I have been declared more than a conqueror through Christ, who loved me. Romans 8:37 

Although I came out victorious, the journey is ongoing. There will always be battles to face because the enemy is a roaring lion, looking for whom he may devour. 

But Jesus Christ has won the battle on the cross, and because of Him who lives in me, I am declared more than a conqueror. 

Besides, the challenges we face keep us grounded and rooted in Christ lest we forget that He is the one who strengthens us and that we must surrender our entire lives to Him. 

Why I Write

The posts I share here are not formal teachings. They’re personal reflections that I've learned as I continue to walk with God and grow in understanding.  

As it says in 1 Corinthians 13:9-12, “For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.” 

I am still learning. Still growing.

And through writing, I continue that journey.

Walk With Me

If you ever struggle to understand the Bible...

If you ever felt distant...

If you are searching for something deeper...

You're not alone.

You're welcome to walk this journey with me.

And if any moments it feels like too much, you're free to pause.

God bless you.